Gina Hussar

Category: Mindset

  • “Feed me, F*ck me and let me watch the game.”

    “Feed me, F*ck me and let me watch the game.”

    A few days ago, I wrote a post calling men and women to do the work we need to do to truly prepare for wholeness.

    It ruffled some feathers.

    I could write 100 more posts on this topic and probably will but here’s the comment that’s bothering me today. I’m paraphrasing from several comments, some from men, some from women, all with this message:

    “I read your post and it’s too deep. Men are simple. They don’t think that much. They definitely don’t feel that much. Feed me, f*ck me and let me watch the game- that’s all they want.”

    Bullshit. My inbox right now is filled with messages from awakening men sharing vulnerable stories of childhood trauma and the effect it has all had on their relationships.

    These are not weaklings. These are warriors. They are seeking wholeness. They are chasing down truth.

    And as one put it, they are “kung fu fighting these demons and WILL win!”

    The problem isn’t that men don’t feel. The problem is that we are still operating from archetypes prescribed by a society that has proven over and over again that it doesn’t know what the fuck it’s doing.

    Men don’t think and women think too much and one is from mars and the other is from venus and one is a nag and the other is lazy when the truth is, most relationships struggle because they aren’t happening between two adults but between two wounded children walking around in adult bodies.

    We are more alike than we’ve been conditioned to think…we just express it differently.

    Here’s what I’ve found…

    Many men DO in fact want commitment. They value loyalty. They want to feel it all in their souls too they just can’t describe it that way.

    They want a woman who can hold them accountable and love them at the same time, without the silent treatment, the bitterness, the withholding. They are looking for the same partnership, the same depth, the same kind of compassionate witness for life that we are, they just don’t express that in the same way.

    But to suggest that men are simpletons who only think with their dicks and stomachs is not only archaic, but it diminishes the experiences of the men I know who are READY for more and who have ALSO walked through hell to get here.

    So can we please give men permission to admit that they feel? That they long for? That they wish? That they fear? That they hope?

    And when they do, may there be a woman on the other side who is embodied and whole enough to honor them for it, hold them through it and walk hand in hand with them out of the fire and into peace.

    Because that’s ultimately what we all want.

    To NOT think so much. To NOT have to fight to be heard and understood. To NOT have to figure things out over and over.

    What the men who commented might not even realize is that underneath their words of bravado is actually a prayer.

    When a man says “feed me, fuck me and let me watch the game” what I think he might be saying is…
    Be the woman who becomes my peace.

  • “What would you do if you were born three times as brave?”

    “What would you do if you were born three times as brave?”

    A message for my fellow people pleasers…

    I’m a recovering “good girl” people pleaser too.

    Let’s not be too hard on ourselves, after all, we all like to be liked.

    We all like to make other people happy. But I liked to take it to the extreme.

    An innocent comment of “you should really try…” and BOOM, I was shifting off course to try whatever it was.

    A casual “I really wish you wouldn’t…” and BAM! I would drop any dream I was carrying.

    As I look back, I realize how many opportunities I passed up on, relationships I stayed too long in, jobs I took, all because I was seeking approval.

    Things I didn’t post. Books I didn’t write, all because I was afraid of upsetting, afraid to rock the boat, afraid someone would see my power, my words, my selfie and say, “Who does she think she is?”

    You see we are taught to be humble. But too many of us misinterpret that as “stay small. Stay quiet. Stay hidden. And don’t for a minute celebrate yourself.”

    “Humble” is praised as a noble attribute. “Pride” is admonished as a trait of the shamefully arrogant. But have you ever read the dictionary definitions?

    Humble. (adj.)- Having a low estimate of one’s own importance.

    Proud. (adj.)- Feeling deep pleasure as a result of one’s own achievements.

    Let that sink in for a minute.

    I don’t know about you, but I’ll gladly choose being one proud mother f*cker over someone who underestimates my own importance in this world.

    CELEBRATE yourself.

    Celebrate your beauty and your wishes and your quirks and your weirdness. Celebrate the fact that you’re a mystic at heart, or an artist in your dreams or a lover of all things sacred.

    Celebrate the fact that you’re alive, and have something to say, and have deep desires buried in your heart that are valid and deserve to be lived out.

    Celebrate your selfie, because it takes COURAGE to get that intimate with yourself and then share it with the world.

    My 2022 goal? At least 100 “humble” people a week shaking their heads at me and saying, “Who does she think she is?” And at least 75% of them realizing they are massively inspired by it.

    I’ll take the hits. I’ll transmute that shit into magic faster than you can find the next thing to judge or be offended by.

    Because that’s what you do when you’ve had enough.

    That’s what you do when your soul is on fire.

    That’s what you do when it’s freaking TIME.

    So tell me how you’re brave.

    Tell me about how the muse has touched you and how life has tested you and how your soul has survived it.

    Tell me what makes you burn, what makes you whole, what makes you iconic.

    I read a quote that said, “I did not crawl through the shards of my own brokenness to live a mediocre life. I’ve prepared for magic.”

    Tell me how you’re magic.

    Tell me how you’re winning.

    Tell me who you are and what you’ve made and why you’re a goddamn GIANT! ❤

  • I am a girl. I am a woman.

    I am a girl. I am a woman.

    Yesterday I wrote a post straight from the heart. A post born out of sheer frustration that I realized later was less of a post and more of a prayer. It was deep. It was real.

    And apparently it offended a few women.

    If you missed it, the post was an invitation to men to rise up, do the work, be vulnerable, go deeper. And I concluded the message with this:

    “PS. Girls- do the same or stop complaining.“

    Well…apparently referring to women as girls is about one of the worst things you can do. Who knew?

    “You diminish women by calling them girls.”

    “Way to set women back 50 years!”

    Here’s how I feel about that-

    This is a pic of me as a little girl and a pic of me as a grown woman.

    Gina as a little girl and Gina as a grown woman

    What kind of message does it send to little girls if the word “girl” is downright offensive? How would my daughter feel if she overheard me telling someone, “Don’t you DARE call me a girl.”

    I am a girl. I am a woman. I am a mother. A daughter. A friend. A leader. A mother-f*cking goddess on a good day and a vulnerable train wreck on a bad one. I am all the things.

    The little girl is an archetype that lives in me and did not disappear when the woman formed.

    When I’m smart, I tend to that little girl.

    When I’m really smart, I allow her needs to inform me.

    That little girl that I still let live and breathe in me is the reason I can still play and hope and dream and believe in magic.

    She’s as vital and as real as the woman in me who can quite competently raise a family and lead a company and kiss a man.

    In most cases, a word is neutral.

    Hell, a knife is neutral. It can save a life, or it can take a life.

    What matters is the intention behind it.

    So no, I won’t be texting my friends to tell them the title of “girls night” is officially changed to “women’s night” or I’m out.

    I won’t be telling my daughter that it’s ok that she’s a girl but only until she’s 18 and then being a girl is very very bad.

    What I will be doing is teaching her to trust her own instincts and check in with the intention behind the words that come her way.

    I’ll be teaching her to discern between a compliment given genuinely and a cat call given disrespectfully and to accept the compliment with grace. (Shout out to the guy who whistled at me yesterday and left it at that. You made a tired mom’s day. THANK YOU!)

    That said, can we please just go back to 1991? We had dial up and car phones and no one was offended when we weren’t offended enough by things we didn’t know were offensive?

    And thank you to the people who read the ENTIRE post yesterday and who understood that it was NOT a man-bashing, women-offending rant…
    but rather an invitation for BOTH men and women to heal together, to meet at the edges, to bring one another home. ❤

  • A MESSAGE FOR MEN….

    A MESSAGE FOR MEN….

    Gina Hussar

    I get a lot of random messages from strange men asking what turns me on.

    So, I thought I might just put it out there because I think I speak for a lot of women on this and I’m here to help.

    Do you want to know what turns me on? What makes me burn for you?

    What makes women like me breathless? What awakens every passionate instinct and unwraps every layer of fiery feminine sensuality?

    Go to freaking therapy.

    Do your work.

    Heal yourself.

    Lead yourself.

    Be brave enough to get uncomfortable for the sake of wholeness and depth.

    Be willing to build your emotional muscle so your arms are strong enough to hold the fire of an awakened woman.

    Be open enough to lean into a level of depth you’ve never experienced.

    Talk.

    Be humble enough to admit that you don’t know everything.

    Go deep.

    Get real.

    Stop hiding behind surface-level sex.

    Evolve.

    Confront what you need to confront so you can move forward without the shadow of your past.

    Stop thinking that vulnerability is weakness. It takes a GIANT of a wild man to get vulnerable and it’s HOT.

    Stop running from magic when it’s exactly what you need.

    Stop telling yourself she’s too much when the reality is you’re just afraid to be enough.

    Lead yourself so you can lead ME.

    Believe that you can handle it. Act accordingly.

    Be the safe space. The strong ground. The calm for her storm.

    Do this and you’ll find your Goddess. Do this and you’ll be taken to a place of wholeness and ecstasy you didn’t know existed and likely wouldn’t have found on your own.

    Do this… and you’ll be home.

    P.S. Girls- do the same or stop complaining. 😉

  • I’m sorry, but you’re not Fu**ed up enough

    I’m sorry, but you’re not Fu**ed up enough

    So, I’m a copywriter by trade, and over the last year or so I’ve developed a heightened sensitivity to bullshit.

    And MAN is there a lot of it!

    One of the messages that is consistently thrown in our faces is the idea that we ARE in pain, and that we MUST get out of it.

    Have you ever been feeling perfectly fine until you read a Facebook ad or a sales page that convinces you that you AREN’T fine and then all of a sudden, you’re whipping out your credit card to buy a solution for a problem you didn’t have ten minutes ago?

    First of all, I’m sorry, because there’s a chance I wrote that page.

    Secondly, here’s the shift I’d rather be a part of.

    1. You don’t have to be CURRENTLY in pain to commit to staying out of it.

    A lot of stuff out there is geared towards people who are in deep, emotional pain. And marketers PLAY on that pain. And if you don’t buy, then clearly you aren’t the right kind of f*cked up so it’s still your fault.

    I remember a mentor saying to me “What kind of pain is your audience in?” To which I replied, “Why do they have to be in pain? Can’t they just have an unwavering commitment to the path? Can’t they just appreciate the benefits of practice and ritual? Can’t they just be passionate about living at a Higher level, with Higher perspective? Why does there always have to be pain involved from the get-go?”

    I schedule healing sessions, not because I need to be dragged out of the abyss, but because they feel so damn good!

    I buy organic face masks, not because I have any kind of skin condition, but because they FEEL so damn good.

    It’s not a rescue mission. It’s a PRACTICE. It’s self-devotion.

    Pain does not have to be a pre-cursor to pleasure. Pleasure can be your default setting.

    2. NOTHING YOU BUY WILL EVER PERMANENTLY ALLEVIATE PAIN

    Sorry, but pain is part of the human experience. As are stress and heartache and uncertainty and change. Change is a privilege of being alive. Some change feels good, some doesn’t.

    But please don’t depend on any one program or book or session to help you keep pain at bay or eliminate it. Not gonna happen.

    The marketers will try to convince you that their “thing” is the SOLUTION to getting out of pain. But that’s a misguided goal. The key isn’t to get out of pain or never be in it. The key is to learn to navigate it in the highest, most empowered way. To move through it and learn from it and be transformed by it. To get in front of it so that when it happens next time, you are temporarily stalled, not permanently stopped and fantastically empowered to process it in a way that serves you.

    Pain isn’t the enemy. The endless quest to NEVER feel it is the monster under the bed.

    The endless quest to reach some far-off future place called “Happy” is what keeps so many people miserable.

    Happy isn’t a destination. It’s not a place you finally, mercifully end up at.

    Happy is a journey. And a practice. And a commitment to re-calibrating, to going deep, to rising HIGHER.

     

     

    High Society is opening up in a few days. It’s an invitation to STAY THE COURSE. To be your OWN solution.

    And I hope you’re going to come hang out with me. 😉

  • Who do you think you are?

    Who do you think you are?

    Hi. I’m Gina. And I’m a recovering people pleaser.

    You too?

    Let’s not be too hard on ourselves, after all, we all like to be liked. We all like to make other people happy. But I liked to take it to the extreme.

    I was a freaking Olympic gold-medalist when it came to people pleasing. I wasn’t just going to try to get an “atta girl,” oh no. That wasn’t enough. I decided to build my ENTIRE life around what I thought other people wanted me to do. Around what made other people comfortable.

    Around what other people thought I was capable of.

    An innocent comment of “you should really try…” and BOOM, I was shifting off course to try whatever it was.

    A casual “I really wish you wouldn’t…” and BAM! I would drop any dream I was carrying and shift my attention to the wish of whoever was speaking.

    As I look back, I realize how many opportunities I passed up on, relationships I stayed too long in, jobs I took, all because I was seeking approval.

    Things I didn’t post. Books I didn’t write, all because I was afraid of upsetting, afraid to rock the boat, afraid someone would see my power, my words, my selfie and say, “Who does she think she is?”

    You see we are taught to be humble. But too many of us misinterpret that as “stay small. Stay quiet. Stay hidden. And don’t for a minute celebrate yourself.”

    “Humble” is praised as noble attribute. “Pride” is admonished as a trait of the shamefully arrogant. But have you ever read the dictionary definitions?

    Humble. (adj.)- Having a low estimate of one’s own importance.
    Proud. (adj.)- Feeling deep pleasure as a result of one’s own achievements.

     Let that sink in for a minute.

    I don’t know about you, but I’ll gladly choose being one proud mother f*cker over someone who underestimates my own importance in this world.

    CELEBRATE yourself.

    Celebrate your beauty and your wishes and your quirks and your weirdness. Celebrate the fact that you’re a mystic at heart, or an artist in your dreams or a lover of all things sacred.

    Celebrate the fact that you’re alive, and have something to say, and have deep desires buried in your heart that are valid and deserve to be lived out.

    Celebrate your selfie, because it takes COURAGE to get that intimate with yourself and then share it with the world.

    My 2019 goal? At least 100 “humble” people a week shaking their heads at me and saying, “Who does she think she is?” And at least 75% of them realizing they are massively inspired by it.

    I’d love it if you’d send me a selfie! You see me all the time. I would love to see and celebrate YOU! In my head we are already best friends. 😉

    Hop over to my Facebook page, give it a like if you haven’t yet, and upload a selfie as a comment to this or any other post. Let me know who you are (who you really are, not just your name), how long you’ve been reading what I write, and what you enjoy or appreciate the most! Click here!

    Here’s my selfie with my salt lamp for good vibes and fake sunlight.

     

    Gina Hussar - good vibes

     

     

  • Detoxing wine, cheese and guilt

    Detoxing wine, cheese and guilt

    Anyone else in detox mode and swearing off food this week? The holidays have a way of making me totally forget that I don’t NEED 12 pounds of cheese and four trays of cookies in one day. So I’m with you.

    But I’m also using the new year to detox patterns, behaviors and tiny ways I betray myself.

    I believe that the last two years have served the purpose of a massive cosmic restructuring. Did you feel that too?

    Nothing felt quite right, or things were BLATANTLY wrong. And then, a tiny ray of light in the form of growth and a soul lesson. A little gratitude, a little joy and then BOOM! Another cosmic tornado. Rinse. Repeat. Fall onto bed exhausted and wishing someone would invent an app that allowed you to take a 48 hour break from your own reality. Just me???

    Can we say buh-bye to all the bullshit?

     

    via GIPHY

     

    So, if 2017-2018 were about dismantling, 2019 is about CREATION, FLOW and the PROTECTION OF YOUR ENERGY.

    Can you get on board with me there? What are you saying goodbye to that ISN’T wine and cheese related? Here are a few things I hope you’ll detox with me:

    1. Needing approval from the people you’re closest to. Doesn’t matter how much you love someone or how much they do for you, they do not need to give you the seal of approval on how you live. If you’re reading this and you’re over 18, you don’t need permission. Go do you.

    2. Worrying about how you’ll be perceived. Could you maybe change “What if they think I’m being preachy? What if they think I’m being stupid? What if they hate my hair?” to “What if I regret never doing it? What if I reach ONE person? What if this is what I’m here to do?”
    3. Feeling guilty for having normal human needs. It’s ok to need a break, a nap or a glass of chardonnay at noon.
    4. Saying yes to anything that deep down actually insults your soul. Because you’ll pay for that. In exhaustion, regret or heartache. So, save yourself that trouble and whether it’s about a new relationship or volunteering for the damn bake sale, say NO when you mean NO.
    5. Doubting your intuition. That sh*t is never wrong.
    6. Allowing people to trespass your boundaries. Family, partners, co-workers, even your children. Make them aware of your boundaries and don’t feel guilty for a SECOND about protecting them. Your boundaries teach people (even tiny ones) how to treat you.

     

    WHAT ABOUT YOU?? What are you releasing once and for all for 2019?

    Leave a comment and let me know so I can add to my own list!

     

     

    Ready to GET HIGH in 2019?!?!?!

    HIGH SOCIETY is coming soon!

    This is the premier community for ANYONE who is ready to go DEEP in a shallow world.

    Anyone who is ready and willing to commit to radical self-awareness and CONSISTENT personal and professional growth. (Cuz we all know that life tends to distract us from living. HIGHER LIVING requires practice and consistency. But who says it can’t be a blast?!)

    This is for anyone who is tired of choosing between miracles and wants MORE of everything.

    More love

    More beauty

    More money

    More soul

    More depth

    More LIFE!

    We are redefining what it means to be HIGH SOCIETY – a tribe of visionaries who will change the world by coming together to think, earn, serve, live and love from the HIGHEST level of consciousness.

    And yes, we might do it in heels and with a glass of champagne but make no mistake, we are going DEEP. We will be spiritual AND sexy. We will be soulful AND wealthy. We will be strategic AND creative. We will be the dynamic, multi-layered human beings we were created to be!

    Details coming soon….

     

    High Society coming soon

  • One Soul, One Goal

    One Soul, One Goal

    Ever watch the news and find yourself thinking, “WTF?!”

    Sometimes it seems like every where I look there is something to be scared of. A war brewing, violence erupting, trees being burned, women being assaulted, men being demonized.

    I’m an empath, so sometimes I see these things and it really gets me down.

    And then I look up… and I shift my gaze… and I see it…

    The love.

    The light.

    The stories of people overcoming tremendous obstacles and triumphing over adversity.

    I see people helping other people.

    And the sun peeking out, throwing sparkles over the snow.

    I see myself in the mirror and remember what I went through this past year.

    And I think about the people who got me through. The friends, the mentors, the incredible healers who blew my mind with their intuition and Divine gifts.

    I see my kids and their innocent hearts and their wild and hilarious imaginations.

    I see women finally having a voice.

    I see men finding the courage to lean into their sensitivity, to their spirit, coming to the realization that STRENGTH is in vulnerability.

    And it’s all so freaking beautiful!

     

    A few years ago I ran a program. The Miracle Project. And the reviews were astounding. I stepped away from it when my business took on a new direction but I never quite put it down.

    It kept whispering to me. Kept tapping me on the shoulder.

    And then, more than one intuitive reader told me that it is indeed my life’s work. Which of course, I already knew.

     

    So today I am listening to that nudge from Spirit. I am not running that program yet, and I’m not sure I will, but I know I am supposed to be having this conversation. So I have opened up the FREE Facebook group, One Soul, One Goal. Here’s what its all about:

    One Soul, One Goal was born out of a commitment to raising the collective consciousness through truth, love and light. Our mission is to inspire 1 million people to live more consciously as a bridge to a deeper, more meaningful experience of life!

    We hope to inspire with “user-friendly enlightenment,”meaning, that this conversation, this way of life, is available to anyone who wants it!

    Together, we can make an impact. Together we can light the way. Together we can triumph over negativity, judgment and fear.

    We are all one, sharing this one earth, sharing this one human experience. We are, in essence, one soul, sharing one goal of happiness, success and unconditional love and acceptance.

     

    Do you believe that if we commit to living better, every day, for just a few minutes, that life can change?

    Do you believe that truth, love and light can indeed win?

    Do you believe that you can live a “real” life, swear a little, enjoy wine and reality TV and STILL be on a conscious path?

    If you answered yes to any of those, please come and join the group and help me by inviting your friends to join too! Let’s see how many people we can get to take a baby step towards purpose, joy and abundance.

    You can join for free by clicking right here.

    Because life is short. And you are Divinely supported. And you can have it all.

  • Dreams, Deals and Bullsh*t

    Dreams, Deals and Bullsh*t

    Ever get emails that sound like this?

    “This will never happen again at this price!”

    “This is the ONLY WAY to get happy and rich!”

    “In just six weeks, your life will be exactly what you want it to be!”

    Or they have a tone like this:

    “Here’s a shot of my mansion in this luxury city and you don’t have one yet because you’ve never worked with me.”

    or

    “My life is amazing because I am my own boss and you’re unhappy because you’re not.”

    So much of it is complete crap! And the first week of January is LOADED with emails like these. (Gotta capitalize on all that resolution stuff right?)

    You want the truth? Here’s the truth.

    I can’t blame them, as our business mentors teach us that we are supposed to represent the “after” of the before and after scenario.

    Have I made great money doing what I love? Yep.

    Did I navigate a horrendous personal situation and come out the other side with a completely transformed spirit and a peace and resilience NO one thought was possible? Yep.

    Do I enjoy a pretty great reality that allowed me to take yesterday off and spend the day with my honey, and a day off last week to drink chardonnay at noon with my friends? Yes.

    But I’m not the after honey.

    I’m the middle. There is no AFTER.

    Living a great life- a life of bliss and beauty and love and purpose and abundance, has nothing to do with reaching a concrete milestone.

    Write the book. Make six figures. Meet the man. Lose the weight. Those are all great goals. Great dreams. But I can promise you they are NOT the end. They are not the “after.”

    The “good” life comes from one thing and one thing only – ALIGNMENT. Daily, consistent commitment to alignment.

    The dictionary defines alignment as “an agreement or alliance.” What alignment is to us is an agreement and alliance between our soul and our reality. A contract between our hearts and our daily lives. A commitment to attuning our truth to our choices.

    Listen I’ve published a best-selling book on amazon. I’ve made the six figures. I’ve spoken on the stages and met the celebrities. Did ANY of it permanently enhance my daily experience of life? No.

    What finally DID? Alignment. Making sure I knew exactly what my non-negotiable feelings and values were.

    I want to feel: Love, Light, Creativity, Connection, Significance, Freedom, Abundance.

    Free time, money, love, creativity, purpose, connection to spirit, connection to family and friends.

    Those are the things I will not negotiate on. I have actually lost clients who didn’t like the fact that my team and I don’t work weekends. I didn’t sweat it, because there’s always another client and my weekends with my family are NOT on the negotiation table.

    She offered me a LOT of money on monthly retainer, but basically, I would have to be at her beck and call. No thanks. Because I knew what would happen. I would be cranky as hell, resenting her, resenting the work, and not doing a very good job because of it. We would BOTH lose.

    One of my colleagues recently said to me, “I have worked SO hard to fill my program that my wife honestly threatened to leave me.” Um.. ok. The whole point to selling your program was so you could spend MORE time with your wife, so how does it make sense to work SO hard at it that she might not be there at the end? That’s some major misalignment and a sure fire fast track to disaster and regret!

    With every decision I make, I ask myself this question:

    Is this decision in alignment with my non-negotiables? Does it keep me feeling how I want to feel and having what I want to have?

    If it doesn’t, it’s a no. No matter how scary or painful it might be to walk away from, it’s far more painful to be out of alignment with your soul, breaking contract with your heart and suffering massive spirit fatigue because of it.

    I can promise you that your truth will not mislead you and you will find yourself living the life you imagined.

    But it doesn’t happen in the AFTER, it happens in the middle. What the after actually is, is the peace of living in flow and alignment on a DAILY basis. It’s not a destination you reach, it’s a way of life you commit to.

    So, what are your non-negotiables? How do you want to feel? And are your choices in alignment? Are you honoring the contract between your reality and your soul?

    If not, this is the year to do it ok?

    I’m with you.

     

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    Something special for my fellow heart-centered entrepreneurs. Are you are pushing, striving, not sleeping, not enjoying your business, frustrated, overwhelmed and working too hard for too little in return? You are out of alignment honey!

    Would love to work with you in a private Align and Define VIP session. “Freedom business” can feel like a big fat joke if you are chained to your computer and STILL can’t get a client. Freedom comes from flow and flow comes from alignment. Period. Read more here and let’s get you on the calendar and set up for a much easier 2018!

     

  • A Negative Side to Positive Thinking?

    A few years ago I hit the emotional equivalent of rock bottom. On the outside I looked like a cross between a Maybelline ad and a catchy sitcom. Kinda cute, mid 30’s, fit, three kids, devoted-ish husband and the two story home on the cul-de-sac. Because this is a blog post and not a ten book series I’ll spare you the details, but the story includes a failed business, a dipping self-worth, an uncertain relationship with my spouse, a questioning of my faith, a widening gap between myself and my confidence as a mother and the general feeling that everything was sinking and no one was noticing my frantically waving hands or my smoke signal…

    Read the rest of this article on the Huffington Post.